Excuses, excuses.....

Well hi there. Remember me? That person who said she was going to post once a week this year? Yeah, funny how that has turned out :P I'M SORRY! I'm a terrible person, I know, but lately things have been....not normal around here and I just haven't felt like blogging. Or when I did I just never sat down to do it.....yeaaaah.

I hope you still love me.

So, about the things that have been going on in my life lately. Well, my boss decided to close down the candy store that I have been employed at for almost two years. Just out of the blue. I didn't think business was that terrible, but I guess she thought differently. So here I am. I have now been unemployed for a week and haven't quite decided what to do with my life yet....I did just finish filling out an application for a full-time job and will be dropping that off tomorrow, so HOPEFULLY I get the position. It would be a huge upgrade from what I've been used to, pay-wise, so it would be worth it, I guess.
The thing is, I reaaaally wish I could just stay home and be successful at the same time. I am going to be (finally) uploading merchandise for my Etsy shop soon, and part of me wants to believe that it's going to be a huge success, but the other part thinks I need to get a job. It's like have dual personalities. They keep disagreeing with each other and it's annoying :P

So yeah, my life has been like, "What am I supposed to do now? Should I get a job? Or should I put all my energy into my Etsy shop, rely on that for income, and hope for the best? Or does that seem selfish and lazy? Should I have gone to college? Should I be taking classes to improve my chances of getting a job? Wait, no, so many college graduates can't even get a job with a degree, so what am I worrying about? And the debt, don't even get me started with all the debt that you can build up. But oh, what are people going to say about me if I don't get a job? Why do I even care? Because I do, even though I shouldn't. Crap. I hate being an adult!" *erupts into random fits of sobbing*

*clears throat* Hehe. The past two weeks have had bits of that going on, and me furiously making stuff for my Etsy shop. I've barely touched the book I'm currently reading (The Two Towers) and there have been days I haven't even been on the internet. *insert horrified gasps* I KNOW.

On a happier note, I've been enjoying being home and will continue doing so while it lasts. And I've been getting a lot of stuff done that I just didn't have time for when I was working so I'm happy about that :)

I am hoping (but not promising) that I will be blogging at least once a week again....but we'll see. I want to see what happens with this job opportunity and if I do get it I still want to keep creating things for my Etsy shop. I don't know why I didn't do it before, but I'm doing it now, so better late than never, right? Right.

*sigh* Life is fun isn't it?

Well, I'll leave you guys with that just so you know that I'm still here and will be here as much as I can! I have a bunch of pictures to share, posts planned, and an Etsy shop to share once I have stuff in it. I also want to devote this time to making my blog exactly how I want it....which will call for a lot of re-searching, so you may see some changes here and there :)

Love you guys!

~Mary